a long assignment in Phoenix makes me tired and content. what kind of nut job is content after hard work? I ask, and you might ask... but he is me. I love to work. Even if I am not good at it. I guess, anything to keep my mind occupied in a productive manner is so good.

please keep 'em comming

ok - gonna go home and try again

it was cold, I didn't feel like running. The teens are too cold to run, I said. mid-twenties - ok for a quick one, I said. Thirties are ok, I said.

then I got home

geez - this is what's wrong with me
fucking lazy and afraid of a bit of discomfort

so out I went. 30 minutes in 15 degree weather won't kill you.

I must not become (more) wimpy

obsess much?


i might should stop it




it's done
i tried

Sometimes I am happy - - no, - - proud to be living through this history. Almost wishing things to get worse, so I can live through it.





maybe I need difficulties
or i wish to punish everyone else

MUST.
MOVE.
FORWARD.