One day begins and it will end. Another will begin again, and that will not change.

Each day will be my life.

A calmness can be derived from this unerstanding.

this is what happens when i have lost everything (making me retarded) from my COMPUTER fucking calendar.

go crazy?

DON'T MIND IF I DO!

oh my.

that's all.

Holy fucking shit and shit


yep - it's another one of those weekends (i was crazy busy already but then the phone rang and I just wanted to say YES!)

so you either will be hearing a lot from me, or not.

and i hope i can fake preparing for the presentation!

I remember doing that once - but I remember it being a little harder - and doing a little more



a policy of never looking at the end product might be helpful. but also non-rewarding at all
i need rewards

and i suppose i would learn EVENSLOWER
(slowness of self-learning is already really keeping me down) this slowness i feel is like The Man - kicking me around. kicking the hell out of me from time to time.

oh fuck i needed that.

it's as miniture as you get - but a trip is a trip.

Whee

i should not return to relying on others for self worth, or validation, and identity.

i should not take what anyone teaches as truth.

i should take the time to fully investigate and then form opinions.

i am not remarkable, but do have that potential. netiher makes me lesser.

i try, and i learn: now i will try to be proud of myself.