So I find myself checking emails in a hotel room becasue the NTSB came well after dark - and I have to get back "out there" early. tired, but pleased.

surreal - not quite a Dali painting, but we're getting there

After an interview yestrday I found out that College Staudents (real ones) are writing a paper and giving a presentation (for their college class) about me. wierd.

Chicago soon,

time to start

I just got this from someone in an email - I don't know if I believe it, or if "this" exists, but it makes me wonder/think/hope

Maybe they knew you were a high roller so drinks
would come faster and photos happen easier.

I say (and think) that I really want certain things. But I now notice that I don't regularly put myself into a position where "that" happens. So maybe I really don't want them. Or maybe I need to DO SOMETHING.

Don't know.

something else I don't know:
a few people have specifically mentioned watching my "carreer" latley. I'm just a guy. just a guy sitting in starbucks trying to catch up from racing around. I'm too far in the middle to see this carreer - or (damn) - I need to focus on actually developing and moving forward with this "career" thing.

Life, at this moment, can be illustrated by a brown paper King Soopers bag: (if you are only allowed one - but let's not get carried away with details right now, ok)

There's only so much space inside that bag. If you pack things in like Andy taught me you can really fit a lot in that bag. I mean way more than you'd of thought before you learn how to pack. But no matter how well I allocate my space, I'm not going to have room for it all. The store's full of all sorts of great things - and I want it all. But I have got to be careful because sure I could put the bread on the bottom and flatten the shit out of it. True, that will give me more room for something else but when I get home I won't be able to make a sandwich with those wadded up lumps of bread; the best I can hope for is alternatley dipping the lump into a jar of jelly and a jar of peanut butter - but it's just not the same.

So now the obvious question is this
If you take your bag and cut it up, and you convince someone else to try this crazy plan, so you cut up another bag - is the resulting bag made with the taped up paper of twice the surface area of the single bigger in volume? AND even if so, would I be able to manage with such a large bag? AND would the tape hold? And could I make my smaller bag again if things fall apart? AND why do I need more in the first place?