The question:
If today was your last day on earth - how would you like to spend it?

usually i would think, ramble, dismiss

last night it was posed on a fucking TV show, and tears came to my eyes. A serious question. One that Grandpa (probably like most people ACTUALLY in that situation) really has VERY little say in.

So it is up to others how you spend your last day(s)

And it is up to how you lived

And it is up to how explicit you were about difficult matters

And now it is up to me. To us.

what responsability





how exhausting



how important

I may not be great- even noteworthy -

I may not know what I'm doing

and

I do not know how things work



but I accept some of these things, and try to change others.
i can do anything and everything and am on the way

I hate making desicisons that directly affect more people than just me.

crazy what a week can do to a life.

how picky a sleeper i still am.

I took a shower today!

at 9pm last night I had worked 30 of the previous 36 hours.

A man gave me a box of chocolates!

I would like to sleep now.