Oh yes- so I am wearing a button up (fully, not even a polo-type shirt) shirt (ok - it's a short sleve) without feeling obligated. I sort of might like it (but don't tell)

I don't know

I might be soo far away from reality I can't see it

just wanting something doesn't make it so: however, I believe that truely wanting something greatley increases the likleyhood of it happening (nope - I'm not turning all mystical and I don't have a bumper sticker saying Don't Drive Faster Than Your ANGELS Can Fly - I'm just saying that if you really want something you'll direct a lot of your activities and conversations and energies towards getting it... that's all)

I worry too much about some things and not enough about others

I often deal a little inappopriatley with things

Confrontation is hard for me

but I usually try VERY hard
AND I usually have only the best of intentions

I'm about to ask if I talk too loud while on the cell phone

I know so little

I was almost heartbroken to find out that the midgets who died actually didn't... but that's a long story.

AND - I thuroughly enjoyed the ROMANCE portion of my daily horiscope:
If you can't make up your mind about whether or not they should make up their mind about something, but you can't even quite remember what it was, take a deep breath. Leave the decisions for later.

It's almost time to stop waiting...

I wonder how people know they are ready to move up - -
I hear "I was in a rut" and "I learned all I could learn" and other such expressions that then led (or compelled) speaker onward and upward.




I'm going to start thinking real hard. trying to make an insite, have an idea.

I'm back - but had a really hard time making my mind happy with me, the trip, my current professional situation (s), my SKILLS...

sleep helps, running helps, but maybe what helps (helped) the most is (was) the long hug, the caring in her eyes, and slowly beginning to understand that I don't have to do it all myself.

*I have a hard enough time maintaining any semblance of sanity as it is.



*said while sipping TEA on a patio cafe in Shanghai while discussing the pros and cons of taking anti-malaria pills.

So many things to write about = so much going on = so little time to write.

The funny thing about a trip is that I am Out, and everyone else is doing normal daily activities.
What does two weeks feel like for normal life?

I forgot the quote but it went like this:
What am I going to do if it requires more than I have?

One of the best lines ever:
just because you're paranoid don't mean they're not after you

I'm sad because of my lack of stamina and direction.

I'm sad because there's so much out there:
maybe sad because I know I won't ever experience most of it
maybe sad because I fear I'm not fully enjoying what I do get to experience
maybe sad because I want to have already experienced it