i try and i try and i try
but for fuck's sake - i am missing something.

is it age?
wisdom?
vision?
intelligence?


what the fuck

goddamn

money and lack of trust. but some extra of it still offers power (or atleast speed things up)


and still fucking fuck slow fucks better get their fucking shit together fast. i'm almost out of care.

I am very curious:

Do you, or people you know feel like most people they interact and/or do business with is trying to take advantage of you?


Please let me know



seriously

by the way - another experience reminded me that

positive feedback does help
so
fuck all you bastards
and
an enthusiastic "good job", and a pat on the back for us

one thing will never make everything better.
i must beat that into my head
so i'm not more dissapointed
than i have to be

it's days like these when I don't know which direction things are flowing.
The sun rises, and the papers come out. The coffee costs the same, and nothing I have done is fully satisfying.

There are reasons to continue down this path, and many to abandon it.


and when will you people learn that video is so fucking hollow?

i think no one can do anything well anymore.

so many lazy fucks

so much crap passed as product


damn fucking piece of shit idiots