OK, I am hoping to continue on my destructive pathway to enlightenment this afternoon. Sunny today – no rain – so maybe the thoughts will be directed in a wholly different way. There are more people around me now, but the music is louder so it might sort of cancel out revealing my process a little better. Maybe seeing all these people will allow me to glimpse something about reality that alludes my introspection. We’ll see. But getting started is hard. And this is just rambelling. And can anything ever actually be certain?

I read something today that I thought I would tell you about. Worth mentioning. One person looks at a material item and states that he can’t afford it. Another looks at a material item and wonders what he’d have to do to be able to afford it. Neither can afford it, but my bets are on the second fella getting it.

So understanding comes from knowledge. But only the knowledge of what is true, and actual. So If I had all the knowledge of my surroundings. No, just all the information about myself. I would at first believe that I would then be able to understand myself. However, it just occurs to me that even with a perfect self-knowledge there are so many external factors affecting any one person at any one time the best I could do is predict… still just predict. But first let’s go back. Go back to knowing yourself;

Fuck, this is getting nowhere.

Observation: Thinking in circles only appears to be logical.

OK, maybe I can trick myself into thinking by going over trust.

No use.

I’m done for the day. Unproductive. Random, ADD day. Too much stimuli.