And so, again I have been thinking. So, I am content here, alone, reading and listening to music and working on my website. Happy really. Actually I'm listening to Sinatra (and was while cooking dinner as the light was fading...) So but, here is the question; the ultimate question... You have recently had a girl live with you. You like her, care for her. She likes you, cares for you. There were difficult moments, sure. Needed to be. But which life would you have rather had for the summer. Alone, or with her (alone in general, or with the mystical non-perfect, but real girl figure)

And why, why do I feel this drive to meet "her" and want to spend time with some "her". Societal preassures, and subconsious little nuggets planted over the years?? Or, a real internal desire? And if it is an internal desire, why? To share life with? To share special moments with? But why not just a good friend to share these things with? Could it really be just that instinct to pass on my genes? Have children?