Well, apparently the decision has been made. I think. I looked at a map for several whiles. I could do it. Easy... BUT, it would cost about $100 a day for gas and a hotel every now and then. So kind of expensive and too many other external factors involved.
So

I was going to say fuck it, I am just going to bed and go on with this normal life. But no. I can't do it. I am tired already at the thought of the next few days. and that makes me want to do it more. Excess. The more daunting it looks now, the more I should do it.